I am....

f_note @ 2007-09-03T18:14:00

2007-09-03T17:15:41Z

Hello.
I hope everyone is fine and dandy.
Just some photos people wanted to see.
Enjoy.
Haha.

HAHAHA!

f_note @ 2007-08-02T23:20:00

2007-08-02T22:53:38Z

Hello World.
I thought i would have a quick update.
I would like to say thank you to that special someone (you know who you are) that gave me a nudge to visit Livejournal, it really made me smile. So........................THANK YOU!
Since exams i have spent my days in a emo nightmare. Work, Tayler, Sleep. It's silly how little things make you feel so depressed and tired that you can just sit in your room for days.
I'm really sorry to use Lj as a tool to just moan and wallow in self-pity. But i just need to let it out.
I'm finding it hard not to worry or get upset over a best friend, who i might not see again.
I feel like everybody i hold close to me, doesn't feel the same way anymore and they are off having fun without me.
I know that people i know and have loved for years are having parties and adventures. That makes me feel/look/seem really selfish but i just feel excluded.
I would like to say sorry to Megan. Please don't feel like a twat when i've been a complete dillhole and it is understandable why to keep a grudge. I will send you an email as soon as Myspace lets me, chuckeroo.
I'm having trouble with inspiration and any work i do is a failure. I'm doing a photography piece on growing up so any ideas would be really helpful and much appreciated.Ihave only took one photo so far;

Well again i apologise for being emo. Not that being emo is a bad thing but in my case, i'm just whiny.
One positive thing in my life is Tayler. It's nice to be in a stable relationship that makes you smile more than frown.
If only i could feel released the way i do when i post an entry to when me and him 'talk' talk.
I want to say thank you to anyone that has read this, it's really decent of you to do so. You're a really nice person to spend the time to read a moaning entry.
I hope everyone is okay in their little worlds and enjoying the summer.

f_note @ 2007-05-10T11:35:00

2007-05-10T10:30:15Z

Alison Smells
Sonia is also a smelly moo.
I would like to live in Jeri's pocket

f_note @ 2007-05-03T19:10:00

2007-05-03T18:20:22Z

I'm a FASCIST or FACIST, however you spell it.
I refused to do any housework until my parents went and voted.
Both voting for Liberal Democrats due to my brainwashing. :)
I always get very political on days like today.
The Labour voting centre is opposite my house, how sickening.
But i grasp every opportunity to call David Taylor a paedophile.
Anyway sorry for the lack of my Ljness.
I'm very content with life at the moment.
Hooo-ray.
I would also like to add a huge I LOVE MISS REBECCA JONES
I haven't seen her as much this week so i thought i would post my love.
Ah, exams. *poos panties*
:O

f_note @ 2007-04-02T21:10:00

2007-04-02T20:19:16Z

Hello.
I'm back.
Easter holidays have only just started and I already want to be at school.
I hate this time of year, so much.
why?
A letter came through the door the other day.
Saying that my cousin commited suicide a few months ago.
Why hadn't no one told us?
We missed the funeral.
We haven't even been told why.
I don't even know how to react.
I'm kind of in shock.
Plus, Tayler who i really like.
Has went and got himself a nice girlfriend called Heather during our trial seperation.
I really like him.
I would not have put up with his moods if i didn't.
Now i'm really speechless.
I'm going to bed.

f_note @ 2007-02-09T17:29:00

2007-02-09T17:42:46Z

I need a cup of tea, a paracetamol, a hug and good old moan on Livejournal. You don't even have to read it. I feel/need/like/want a moan.
      Snow, i hate it and wish all the dogs would eat it all up. Well that's what my dog does when it snows, i'm not quite sure about yours. Leon put a snowball down my trousers, it was cold......very cold.
      Friends, love all of mine more than they will ever know. However i'm rather mooed off with the fact my best rockstar, Cally has been seeing Megson without telling me for some time now. I wouldn't have minded if she had told me. It was only today that she finally confessed she fancies the old, smelly, panties off him and is going to meet up with him on Valentine's Day. Again, how could i be mad? She can't help who she likes. But then she said the worst, 'He fancies Shed you know,' and had this really 'haha in your face' kind of smile. I felt rather poo then after she was grinning to herself and feeling fairly pleased that she brought him up and the girl he cheated on with me. But i do what i do best, hide the fact that i want to jump on her, face flat on the floor and make her eat dirt.
    I'm sorry that i ranted on and if you did read this, thank you. It's nice to have someone to vent to. I hope you all have a great day and what ever you're doing or wherever you are always feel like the rockstar you really are. Like my cheesy ending?

f_note @ 2007-01-02T20:11:00

2007-01-02T20:11:43Z

So here's to 2007.

I've never been into the whole New Year celebration thing. I don't really like the idea of spending the whole night with people i don't really know, to drink meaningless and just go 'wooooooo' after you hear the big ben chimes on t.v. I would like to say i will miss 2006. Why? Because alot has happened. I've learnt alot, seen alot, felt alot and regretted alot. That's the fun of growing up, i guess. So i thought i would make a list to say why 2006 seemed so special.
1)Fashion: drainpipes, bows and cowboy scarves
2)People: Cally &hearts;, ~~Megson~~, Jacob, Sam, Jeri, Holly, Chris, Sophie etc. But most importantly i have seen people in differen lights this year.
3)Lessons: I've learnt what love really is. Not all that silly silver screen hooplar. Kiss, hug, tingles, butterflies......poo! Love is what one person feels which i guess was created by their partner of the time. It's feelings that are mixed up. Content, paranoia, extreme insecurity, happiness, confidence, carelessness and the fact that you are so terrified of loosing what you have. However, all those things that you wish to last forever are always the things that burn out sooner than those you don't want forever. So i've learnt to be happy with who am i what i have. Kaaaaaa-ching.
4)Passions: The Phantom Of The Opera, it's my new favourite movie since 30th of Decemeber 2006. I would like to mention that when i have a favourite movie, it lasts for a very, very long time. So i warn you i will be singing the movie's songs for a very long time. I loved being in a band this year and well it's ashame it's over. Chris is amazing guitarist to sing along to. Gawd, i love that guy, more so than i used to. This year has really opened my eyes to the fact that i've had a huge cush on thsi boy since year 6. :) I feel so much better for admitting it. But i'm to scared to act on it. I also adore photography. This summer i really fell in love with taking pictures. I even set up an photo album for the stuff i do and i would like you to be in it. I hate to use effects since I'm all for natural beauty.

So let's make this year interesting.
I want to go out more.
Take some more pictures.
Start a scrapbook with all my friends in it.
Say i love you to the people i love more.
Stop drinking.
Start making memories.

f_note @ 2006-12-30T18:33:00

2006-12-30T18:33:45Z

Sorry for my lack of livejournalness lately.
Silly sickness bug.
Found some pictures.
Pretty random.
But pretty special.

With my stalker and the monkey making out in the background. Ha!

I love this. Why? Because i love Mrs Cooke.

And then some pictures from some of my photography sessions. No effects on them this time.

The Fratellis concert

Muse concert

Muse

Muse again.

And Muse again. heheheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I have to put this on again. I love it so much

Cheery Bye all. xXx

f_note @ 2006-12-07T20:27:00

2006-12-07T20:27:25Z

I haven't posted in a while.
Since nothing good or fun or exciting or different has happened.
Be nice and give my day spice.

I hate this time of year.
I loose my man parts everyday now.
But love Christmas.
Photo opportunities are low.
But i still love these.

Ha.
I thank Jeri for those.
Went to a book launch earlier.
Only for half an hour.
Avec my friend, Joe.
It was his dad's book launch.
I have never been so under dressed in my life.
I guess drainpipes, a black shirt and backcombed hair isn't very classy.
School contains of work, football watching, singing and eating my way through the day.
Thank God, i have Beckie. &hearts;
I learnt silly Bullet For My Valentine song on guitar.
Well slap me twice and call me emo.
Christmas is coming.
I don't know what to do or what to buy.
Ideas?
I made aload of bags but they died in a tragic 1970's sewing machine incident.
Poo'ed is my new saying.
Isn't it annoying?
Jimmy hasn't spoken to me in a while.
It makes me feel blue.
I'm bored.
And i'm boring you.
Chow m'dears.

f_note @ 2006-11-18T17:59:00

2006-11-18T17:59:27Z

I'm jolly as a mop today....
....I wish!

New.

Newish

Old and my favourite.

If you are wondering why the sudden Janie Jonesness, i was moooosing about with my vinyls and found them.
I wish i was Janie Jones.

f_note @ 2006-11-14T17:10:00

2006-11-14T17:10:55Z

I don't feel better when i'm numbed out,
I don't write songs better when i'm stuck on the ground,
I don't want you to miss me at all,
I don't want you to see how badly i have taken the fall,
I don't love the way you encouraged me to be different,
I don't even like you're stupid hair,
I don't love the way you made me feel with that loving stare.
I don't want to know if you know that i was a waste of time.

f_note @ 2006-11-12T17:50:00

2006-11-12T17:50:40Z

These past few weeks have been the worst,
My sister is leaving to live in Brighton in a matter of days,
I'm going to miss her....alot,
Me and Megson are over again,
He is now ignoring me and it really hurts,
What have i done wrong to deserve being dumped for no reason?
And now i feel really stupid for posting this.

f_note @ 2006-11-11T22:00:00

2006-11-11T22:00:55Z

The internet is the DEVIL! It is evil, i tell you. It will rip out your heart and leave it in a emoish state on the pooy coloured carpet.

f_note @ 2006-11-10T19:10:00

2006-11-10T19:10:35Z

I have just seen the WORLD's funniest Frank (drug) advert. It just sings, do you think everybody cares about you? Maybe you're smoking too much cannabis! Hehe, poo my panties! No-one will ever care about you if you're not drooogs. Thank God they got rid of that silly advert with the silly child wearing that silly hat that asks all the silly questions. How long are you going to feel like that for? *jumps on bed* Silly i tell you!

f_note @ 2006-11-05T12:52:00

2006-11-05T12:52:43Z

So this is the first time i have been out of bed for the whole weekend.

I will return to life under the covers soon.

Where i can live in denial.

While he erases me from his life.

Every photo cut up, burnt and thrown away.

Any song we wrote/sung together will be hated.

I will make him less sad.

By not breathing at all.

I'll grow old.

And start acting my age.

I will wake up everyday.

In a life that i hate.

Avoiding taumenting love songs on the radio.

When love doesn't exist and it is just a show.

I don't know what to do or where to go.

What to say or what think.

f_note @ 2006-10-31T21:58:00

2006-10-31T21:58:39Z

Hello to the world and all my friends that are rocking it. Happy Halloween. Eventhough in these days there really isn't any point celebrating it since it's just an excuse for people to get drunk, rub against eachother and terrorize the innocent. I felt like posting some pictures hope you don't mind.

This picture breaks my heart but glues it make together at the same time &hearts;

Rape is frowned upon. I can see my shoes!

Smile like you mean it.

Pillow Ninja Megan makes me moist.

Yummy.

And just random people i love...

Mr Tayler Knight

Jerri. That nutbar

Ali Bob Bob

My older brother Reece, Jack (the tall meany) and Tayler. What KFC fun we had.

And just a retro one i heart! Gary looks uber hot on it!

Sorry if i have bored you. Since i sure bored oneself! During the image downloading phase i have a new one. An improve myself phase. Yes, I'm on crack. I've decided not to drink, swear or smoke anything that makes me giggle like a poo'ed. It's not the person i want to be anymore.

f_note @ 2006-10-30T18:20:00

2006-10-30T18:32:33Z

Well me and my main rockstar, Miss Beckie, have been planning to do a mock emo song for a while now. So..

I want to fall down a well,
To escape this hell,

This is the fun part add what you want to the song as long as it is taking a poo out of the over-rated emo scene.

f_note @ 2006-10-29T13:07:00

2006-10-29T13:14:39Z

I'm back from good old London. I &hearts; London, just dislike the scene kids that are rather judgemental. I went in every retro store to find another Queen's guard jacket which is abit smaller than my current one. No luck with that. I meet some guy in a store called One Legged Jockey. He was amazing. His name was Robert Smith, i thought he was lying about his name at first but he shown his passport. So i will say i met a famous rock star! Apart from rad indie kid meetage, nothing happened and i would be rather jolly back at school. Never thought i would say that since I hate school. I miss my boootiful people sp very muchly. But i can't wait for Jacob's Halloween party on Friday. I need ideas on who i could be. Any ideas please tell me, it has to be a movie theme. Hope you are all fine and dandy.

Love Miss Jessica Bowler xx

f_note @ 2006-10-12T18:32:00

2006-10-12T17:34:19Z

You know something must have gone/be wrong when you can''t stand 'our' song which has been the soundtrack to your last six months.

f_note @ 2006-10-08T21:42:00

2006-10-08T20:48:06Z

I miss the warm, sunny days,
When nothing mattered,
There was no such thing as school,
Hours was spent lying in a field with the only guy you have ever felt anything for,
Making bows,
Getting stoned,
Dancing was stronger than words,
Funny photographs that remind you of the good times,
Throwing dodgy ice lollies at trees,
Then feeling guilty for hurting the tree,
Giving it a hug and start to climb,
Get stuck,
Start to laugh,
And then scream,
Fall into the arms of the guy you trust,
And then just smile for the rest of day,
I miss those days!

f_note @ 2006-09-24T20:48:00

2006-09-24T19:49:47Z

Dedicated song of the night. Chris Glover gave me this song after screaming that he loved me! Ahhh, but read the words it's soooooo sweet.

"Here's Everything I've Always Meant To Say"

Just be in love and I’ll kiss you like you’ve always wanted
Just close your eyes, I’ll still live as if I’m dying

If I don’t make your heart skip a beat then hate me
If I don’t make you feel anything than it’s me

I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life

Just close your eyes and I’ll kiss you like there’s no tomorrow

If I don’t make your heart skip a beat then hate me
If I don’t make you feel anything then it’s me

I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life

So sleep now, so deep in static
Drifting in the shadows
Hold me close to the glow of headlights
And TV screens

I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life

f_note @ 2006-09-23T22:01:00

2006-09-23T21:07:26Z

I'm sorry i haven't updated in a while *hangs head in shame* I'm a lj failure. Nothing has really happened since my last random entry. Expect for the fact: I have a cold and i sound like a duck, i brought a cooooool 'Vote For Pedro' shirt, i have converted to indie, i've fell in love (which is weird since i don't believe in it), i like to wear orange all of sudden and oh my best friends 'supposedly' raped one of my new amazing buddies.

f_note @ 2006-08-23T19:13:00

2006-08-23T18:14:43Z

When do we go back to school? Anybody know? Wednesday or Thursday?

f_note @ 2006-08-18T21:34:00

2006-08-18T20:43:31Z

I scream these words with passion and dismay,

Obsessed with the hope that you’ll love me someday,

Gosh oh mighty I'm bored. Well thats a short song. It's really emo and depressing. But it has light Led Zeppeliny ending. Now i'm off to the moon.

f_note @ 2006-08-17T17:24:00

2006-08-17T16:36:44Z

Hey my booooootiful people. Sorry that i've been away for such a long time, not like you noticed with your busy buzzing lifes. I hope you are all okay and if you're lucky enough for a no-school summer, i hope you're having the time of your life. I've been rather bored this summer but my highlight was seeing zeeeeee amazing Beckie, who i love sooooooo much. Yay! Coffee buzz just kicked in. Well i'm afraid my internet hasn't been completely fixed so i'm unable to see your posts. So if you want to update me on anything i would love to hear from you in my comment box. The more news i get, the better since i love everyone on my friends list and would love to hear about your latest kaloooooooooopy. Well as my post nears to the very boring end. I just wanted to ask you for your help since I'm in a little-kid-like-dilemma. Basically, my boyfriend of months has been rather odd with me lately. Including: battering me with a frizbee until bruised, not talking, going places with his ex and telling no-one (so he must be hiding something), avoiding me, not answering my calls etc. So i've been back and forth to Ashby, to see whats up with him and not facing him directly with my problems. I've spent lots of time with his friend Jacob. If you're a relationship guru, you must of guessed by now. But i fell for him due to the fact he's like the old Megson, before he changed, we like the same music, he's nice.... to me, cute, gawd i mean cute! and he makes me laugh. I just need to know what to do. I'm clueless.

*if anyone knows Jacob, please do not say anything to him about it*